~feelings~

Lately, I do not know why but my mood is kinda down n i hv this weird feeling where i'm really really uncomfortable with...maybe it's just me..or i dont know..things that i might be affected by: acedemic, family, love life or frens...i always admire my frens who are good or hardworking in their studies,who strives hard for their goals n hv all the confidence n independence to move forward...i always wonder what my future holds..will i be successful??will my family be proud of me??...

i really dont want to disappoint anyone especially my family but i seriously dont wanna leave this place..i would prefer to stay..but..

i too admire frens or ppl i know who can hv a long lasting relationship, who go thru ups & downs,everything together..everytime i wonder why cant i be like them??how long must i wait for my fate??i believe in fate =) my sister taught me to..well it's very rare to find someone who truely loves u dearly n who u truely loves deeply too...maybe it's not my time yet but i envy those ppl who found their special someone when they were young n are still together up till now..still so loving...=P

all n all i'm glad to hv great frens around me when i'm feeling down or depress..hahax!i love my frens n hope they'll love me back~!!=) SmiLe Alwiz to everyone out there!!=) =D =P